Life Through My Eyes

  Will you be able to make me laugh when I clock 75 the same way I will laugh in our beginning of time?  Are you able to, strong enough to collect my pieces when I break down in your arms...won't you judge me for being childish when I start crying out of the blue, won't you question who is older, me or our children when all hell breaks loose and the tears well down like the riv er Nile? Can you piece us back together when several atoms of our existence scatter in one another's arms...can you? Are you able to remember to keep me abreast every family event, life event and not come with your head hung that you didn't think it was important for me to know after I question you about it or read from your networks or even hear about it from your friends? Let me edit what's  important or not.. keep spilling your daily events... Will you keep me in your programs at all times or will you only have me a part of it only if you identify a gain? Are you willing to ask for my help...

  They will call us silly for not wanting to clean after them They will live in denial and reaffirm to themselves that a changed, empowered woman is still a failure They will call us bitter, angry, irrational, and toxic for speaking up for others They will call us relationship breakers for lifting and enlightening a sister drowning  For showing them it gets better if not there, then out here They will think we are negative for offering a shoulder to our kind For how long do you want to trample on us? They will belittle us and make us think we are crazy We shall be judged without being understood For the world has to function in their favour When they wake up, we shall be far When they finally see, they won't reach us And the tables might turn, not for the good I fear How do we co-exist without thinking woman is way and way below you? When you look at your mother?  Are you happy with how your father treated her? Do you or did you like how your father looked at her? Was his...

When mad at me, he goes quiet like a cemetery When suspicious of me, the night will surely be a cold one like the seashore in the dead of the night When I serve him the truth, he gets angry like a mother bear threatened How do I deal with this one?   He will sulk, ignore everything that is connected with me Look at me with disdain He will keep his distance both day and night And when nature demands He expects me to embrace him like he has been human to me all along Like I don’t have feelings Like I have been blind to his attitude How does my blood warm up to him?   He thinks I am any woman He takes me to be a trouble maker He is pushing me away slowly With all the cold treatment And one day, I will let up And guess what, the world will blame me But I will have my uninterrupted peace   PC: Pixabay Through the eyes of AYENYO Joanita  

  Just because I told you a part of my story doesn’t make you the author of my life Just because I loved another deeply before you, doesn’t make me love you any less Just because I confide in you time and again doesn’t make you my sole confidante I am being true to you and to me by showing you my past I don’t want to behave like I just landed on the planet and am yet to build a life   If you can’t trust me, leave If you can’t acknowledge my past, the door hasn’t closed If you can’t support my ventures for you must twist all to suit your selfish ego, Stop wasting my time and your time When you pursued me I told you I needed to fix 'me' for I was a mess You thought otherwise I let you in amidst my turmoil You showed understanding, But can I say, you were just getting your way in?   Your obsession gives me chills It makes the love die at the door of my heart And the warmth freeze under my skin You don’t trust me around any male And w...

I froze that Saturday morning as tears streamed down my face like Aruu falls in the rainy season Breath stuck in my lungs as a lump lodged itself on my throat My mind raced all over trying to ascertain how they got to you Your baby Winnie told us how you promised her never to let your guard down And when she received the devastating news that Aug 21, she immediately knew you did at some point, It could have been a blink of an eye, but they got to you Lion   Maria your star sent you off with a heartwarming message through spoken word Glad she did one for you before they put you down Yes, she reminded us of your great looks that we all know to be of movie stars Many hearts crashed alongside that of your wife, not that you were not true to her, But many were deeply in love with you, without your knowledge   More people were left dazed as you commanded many admirers, a fearless man of great intellectual; One respected by so many Isn't that what Lion...

I never wanted Love No one had spoken well about it It looked good Felt sooooo good But it had its way It often shattered those who opened their doors it   Shattered them beyond recognition How can something that looks so good, feels like heaven leave one crawling on knees with bones shattered? I told myself Never open your door to the cunning Love I made sure I kept it that way One busy day as I went about my work What looked like Love knocked on my door It was an extremely busy hot day I looked at Love It looked so beautiful I reached out Touched Love It felt so relieving, so great! I remembered my promise to myself I pulled my hands away  Stepped back Shuddered, what had I done? As I started shutting the door Love reached out and held the door Pushed its head through the door My breath stopped midway I felt a mild current run through my body Oh, Love! How can I react to you this way? Helpless, I let Love in The biggest mistake ever Love bit me like a rat Blew air over ...

No mother wants to bury their child No child wants to bury their mother And yet we can't manipulate the way of the world A woman celebrated every day One whose laughter rang through the Valleys and hills and the forests One whose brightness shone and reflected on others One whose very person was infectious that you wouldn't pull your mouth around because of her humour I knew you for over a decade but only realised you were my sweetness' aunt about a year ago I remember asking my sweetness 'Is this like your aunt aunt, a sister to your mother, like sister sister or sister?' Yes, i used this phrase Sweetness had reached out just about the lock down time The world was full of uncertainty as a new virus had been detected We were worried, scared for the unknown and unseen Even amidst all that happening, I didn't hesitate, I informed sweetness to bring you home Vrooom Vrooom You arrived You were inquisitive, asked and probed You were fascinated and relieved You saw ...

  I remember that night when I met you I remember it so vividly You didn’t strike me, but you made a mark We started talking I remember the long hours, those endless calls I loved and adored every single call you placed You were soft and tender and would sing to me Yeah sing for me   Then it happened! Yes it happened We started looking at each other differently We started falling, deeper and deeper We became inseparable They knew you were around when they saw me in the hood Many wished they were us Instead of emulating us They started tearing us apart   We fought off the family that doubted us We fought off the negative energy from “friends” and our surrounding Strangers and those known to us wondered why we were together You kept whispering in my ears how we would beat all odds You painted for me “our” future Yes our future, a future my brain doubted, but my heart soared every time you mentioned it I was hesitant to believe...

I am Enough I am Human I Deserve Better When the wars raged in my country I was left with no choice but to run Run I did and ended up in my neighbouring country   I am Enough I am Human I Deserve Better My lineage cannot just end like that So much blood has soiled the ground My people’s blood   I have no power to stop it I am broken and in despair All I could do was run   Shame you might call it My lineage cannot just end like that So much blood has soiled the ground My people’s blood   Received I was in this neighbouring country I cannot complain much   Even with the little food and hardly a shelter over my head Improvise I have to do Yet the community that hosts me is cruel I am Enough I am Human I Deserve Better   I am Enough I am Human I Deserve Better I cannot fetch firewood, for that does not belong to me, but them I cannot fetch water from ’their’ well, for that water is not meant for me ...