If You Can’t Trust Me, Leave

 Just because I told you a part of my story doesn’t make you the author of my life

Just because I loved another deeply before you, doesn’t make me love you any less

Just because I confide in you time and again doesn’t make you my sole confidante

I am being true to you and to me by showing you my past

I don’t want to behave like I just landed on the planet and am yet to build a life

 

If you can’t trust me, leave

If you can’t acknowledge my past, the door hasn’t closed

If you can’t support my ventures for you must twist all to suit your selfish ego,

Stop wasting my time and your time

When you pursued me

I told you I needed to fix 'me' for I was a mess

You thought otherwise

I let you in amidst my turmoil

You showed understanding,

But can I say, you were just getting your way in?

 

Your obsession gives me chills

It makes the love die at the door of my heart

And the warmth freeze under my skin

You don’t trust me around any male

And what does that make me in your eyes?

A whore who can’t keep her knees together

 

If you believe this heart doesn’t belong to you

Go

If you believe I am a public property

Go find yourself a private property

 

You all might wonder why I don’t fight for love

You might think, this being is so cold at heart and doesn’t love

Wrong!

I love so fiercely,

But the pact I made with myself years ago made me who I am today

Loving another is not defined by begging them to stay when they choose to leave

For how long will you cling to one who doesn’t adore and value you?

For how long will you keep someone who doubts you and everything else you do?

For how long will you stay with one who watches over you like a herdsman?

Loving you doesn’t mean my life has to turn into an island

I am stronger with an army around me!

 

I love you dearly and sincerely

But I can’t handle your insecurities

Love is supposed to be sincere, and true,

Trust is a driving force in a relationship

Even the most beautiful union is destroyed by obsessive jealousy and other insecurities

I don’t want to be in a strained relationship,

That is not what I signed up for

Love is supposed to be beautiful

The ugliness mustn’t overpower the beauty

Choose how you wish to trade

 

PC: Monicore

Through the eyes of AYENYO Joanita





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