The Lover That Was Not

 

I remember that night when I met you

I remember it so vividly

You didn’t strike me, but you made a mark

We started talking

I remember the long hours, those endless calls

I loved and adored every single call you placed

You were soft and tender and would sing to me

Yeah sing for me

 

Then it happened! Yes it happened

We started looking at each other differently

We started falling, deeper and deeper

We became inseparable

They knew you were around when they saw me in the hood

Many wished they were us

Instead of emulating us

They started tearing us apart

 

We fought off the family that doubted us

We fought off the negative energy from “friends” and our surrounding

Strangers and those known to us wondered why we were together

You kept whispering in my ears how we would beat all odds

You painted for me “our” future

Yes our future, a future my brain doubted, but my heart soared every time you mentioned it

I was hesitant to believe, but you assured me and reassured me

I fell for your lie dude, how could I be so blind

I strongly believe you lied to me from the beginning and kept at it the entire time

Maybe I was so blinded by what i felt

Maybe you were just flawless at how you did it

Maybe I just wanted to give a chance to love

 

All along i was hesitant to give you my whole

A part of me knew you would misuse it

My brain was right and heart wrong

 

I believed in your gift, your talent

 I lived your dream, pushed it forth, fought for it

 I introduced you to the lions who devoured what we had built amidst our challenges

Now you forget all I put in and spit at me

Rub them in my face

And scream how I sat on your talent

Sat on your talent?

 I won’t question you unless you mean

Your promiscuous behaviour, your selfishness, your blackmail

Your love for attention from all those slays who fight for a piece of you

 

 

Once you tricked the world to think you had found an angel

Now today you search for an angel to calm your ego

What a joke!

But that will always be you

 

One morning I sought understanding of what was going on

“I don’t want this relationship anymore” was your brief reply

Not a chance did you give me to seek understanding of what was going on

And not a reason for wanting out did you place on the table

We were strained like any other, but what did you do about it?

You lived a lie with me and that is why it was easy for you

In a matter of days, you had replaced us!

With one of those who kept you up all night long as I tossed around

 

Were you after something material as the world believed?

I didn’t believe it, but now I question it and I question it every day

 

But amidst all, i found my peace!

I am at peace!

 

PC: Alex Green

Through the eyes of AYENYO Joanita