He left me when god whispered in his ears

 

Jake and Paula had been withdrawn for some time. Paula was battling poor health; one illness after the other. Life was rough and she longed for every support she could imagine. Paula had found a man who was caring in the beginning, but as life would have it not every flower blooms forever. His feelings started to waver at the point when hers was soaring.

Jake found a hobby that he clung to. He talked of a void that Paula could not fill; she knew she could not because no matter how much she tried, it all went to waste.

Jake found a love. He found someone else to fill his void.

During that time, Paula’s energy was geared towards becoming better. She felt his distance by the day. By night it felt like they were on different sides of the rift valley itself. They couldn’t cross over to one another. Paula was being eaten up, as she felt abandoned. She didn’t whine about it. She tried to appease his soul, to jump start it, Jake had made up his mind. She was left with only one option, to pray that things would get better by each morning, but all that was a dream. They kept drifting apart. Sometimes, that is the way of life.

These gaps and ridges we create can always be closed when there is a will from both parties, but unfortunately, there was only the will of Paula as Jake was already riding on a different wave altogether.

Paula never believed in love and trod extremely carefully when it came to that. She guarded her heart jealously. Not that she had gone through a rough time with love, but she had witnessed it from afar. When Jake first approached her, he wore the coat of truth and honesty in his words and action. Paula had her doubts and stayed guarded for some time. Jake kept the coat on the entire time and eventually, Paula fell head over heels in love with Jake, she opened the fountain of love. She opened all the doors to her life. Invested everything she had or could lay her hands on. Jake was still in his coat, but perhaps the heat had started building up from inside. He started lifting the coat a little and unbuttoning. Paula was blinded and she couldn’t see, she was warned by those who were not clouded by love. She didn’t yield to these warnings; she clung to every word and command of Jake.

He started acting out, her presence never pleased him anymore and all he wanted was to stay far away from her. There was always one excuse after the other to stay away from home. Paula only felt his presence on the other side of the valley. He was really never with her.

Back to the present, before the rude awakening, she got deceived by Jake to climb a mountain and stand at the peak. She told Jake she suffers from acrophobia, but he promised he would be there every step of the way. He blindfolded her so she could not see how high they were getting, tightened his grip around her, and offered her the comfort and confidence she needed. She eventually relaxed. Up they went and reached the very peak. Paula was confident by this time. Jake left her hands and whispered to her to drop down the fold. She did and as she was taken in awe by the view spread around her, she did not realise that she had been left. She called softly, there was no response. She called again thinking she hadn’t been heard, but still no response. She turned around and realised she was all alone. She thought a trick was being played on her. She had started panicking. She closed her eyes and sat down. She was so dazed and by this time she was calling while tears streamed down her face. Her voice was disappearing fast. She had to think quickly, she was so afraid to make any sudden movement, so dizzy to think straight. How could she have fallen for this lie, how did she not see it coming? How could she give her whole? Her life; her everything to another, how? What had happened to her, how did she lose her sanity over Jake? What was over her to accept to climb that high? It was too late for all these questions. Jake had left; Jake had left her regardless of all the promises of growing old together, regardless of all the praises he poured on her. Was it even real?

She heard a sound and turned abruptly; she slid. Gripped on the edge of a rock, but she couldn’t cling on…She fell and kept falling.

 

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Through the eyes of AYENYO Joanita